Thursday, December 28, 20063:07 PM
CRAP LOAD.
yay-ness! i've watched NCIS on star movies earlier. finally! my prayers are answered! i've been waiting for this since summer. but the episode shown is still on season 2 and i have watched ALL the season 2 episodes. o_O the thought of it sucks but i will still watch it anyway just because i hearts NCIS that much.
i haven't been updating my blog lately because... because... i've been busy with the INO message
boards and making picture captions and... scavenging for good photos of them. i'm quite optimistic to start a fansite | philippine-based. and i'm pretty much frustrated with what to do with it. (x_X) this is what i get for being so hooked up.
i was suppose to register today for a voter's i.D. heck, it was cancelled. just right on time because i'm too lazy to go out today. i need to study for our exams when we return to school and i've just lifted a pages of the book, not even digested what i've read. i was suppose to do a report, and what the heck, i still haven't started it. and i need to finish cleaning up my room, but wtf, i don't feel like doing it. oh yeah, thank you my procastinator being!
gawd, i'm a depressed trigger-happy kid. ~* i thought i was pretty normal but i now realized that i'm not very normal at all. i was suicidal when i was in my elementary years, i was close to cutting. well, i did but i guess the blade wasn't so sharp. i would draw myself plans of how to die. i came up with lots of them, hanging, falling down on the roof or on the 2nd floor, and getting an overdose. i love the sight of blood splatters around, stick figures that looks violent, lots of black and red, disembodied drawings of myself, and yes, i do love caskets and vampires and everthing not normal to normal people. i was a loner then but i bully kids, specifically boys, and i was a delinquent once. i make up lies, i disobeyed my parents, i drink sparkling soda thinking and pretending it was alcohol. yet, i get good grades and i don't drink nor smoke. i don't flirt. i don't date. i almost died and not afraid of it. i have a major life change but i'm getting back to my old self again. damn. what's wrong with me?
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