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i'm back!!

matagal akong di nagppost dahil sa nagbusy-busyhan ako.

#1 Room makeover ang drama. (will post pics soon!)
#2 Nilakad ko ang scholarship. Thank God 1.75 ang average ko, exacto.
#3 Enrollment kanina. For the first time, hindi matagal ang enrollment. =]
#4 Nagpa-trim ako at parang tulad na ng dati ulit ang buhok ko.
#5 Isang matinding general cleaning ang dadating.
#6 TEENAGERS is out!!! at bati na kami (in my own world) ni dadi gee. haha. frank is my princess mom. (~~,)
#7 balik icon making ulit ako at masaya. masayang-masaya.
# nagswimming pala kami... after 2 years. honestly.
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for real.

The words just came out of my mouth...

it's the irony of LOVE.

i used to remember how i keep telling people that you can't really love someone if you haven't met them and know exactly who they are -- but i guess i can't tell myself that or maybe i had but never worked out.

i remember that when i was in 2nd year highschool, i had a good friend and i don't know if it's for real that she had a friend named RETSUKI. And for real, i loved retsuki even though I only knew him from her descriptions and from what she tells me about him in an everyday basis. it might be that kind of childish love but it was for real. i even kept the necklace that she said that he wanted it to be given to me for long but it's not with me anymore today because it was stolen.

retsuki might've been an imaginary person 'coz he's almost perfect but hell if he's real or not, he did taught me how to love, somehow.

so would i take my words back? that you can't really love someone if you haven't met them
and know exactly who they are.

who would know. maybe. but not for now.

sorry for cheesy-ness. i just saw pictures of ducky and now feeling better. visual bribes always works for me. anyways, i visited my multiply and just found out that jessika tagged me. and i found it late, so lame of me. but anyways, i'll do it later. they're killing me for having late lunch (at 4pm) again! *runs*
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pirates and engagements

Pirates of the Carribean: At World's End was bloody hell awesome. and now i should say that --

lol. xD. all caps and in large letters pa! waha, geez. should i say jack sparrow slash Johnny Depp is dayum hawt. teehee. plus the story was good great!!

as much as i want to indulge more on the details and the good stuffs, that i won't do. i'm not a SPOILER. period.


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i reached 1000!!

it's really irrelevant but heck, i just wanna shout to the world that my mcr photo folder have reached a whooping 1090 pics! it's not really something to be proud of but i still love the whole idea~ lol. xD! i'm going for 2000! haha.

well, moving on.

last night was a stressful one. i almost cried my lungs out and was close to having a heart seizure.
i don't wanna indulge on the details of what happened. all summed up, i just talked a lot last night and was into a lot of pain, emotionally but i'm glad it's over and probably i could sleep well tonight.

and now, i'm having urges to change my layout header again. *runs to photoshop*
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tag! i'm it!

4 jobs i've had
--> daughter
--> sister
--> typist
--> tutor

4 movies i've watched over and over
--> notting hill
--> white chicks
--> spongebob squarepants the movie
--> kung fu hustle

4 places i've lived in
--> manila
--> cebu
--> bohol (?) stayed, not lived in.
--> dapitan (?)

4 TV SHOWS/STATIONS I LIKE TO WATCH:
--> NGC & discovery
--> ETC, jack & 2nd avenue
--> mTV
--> star movies

4 PLACES I’VE BEEN ON VACATION:
--> cebu
--> bohol
--> dipolog
--> tagaytay

4 of my favorite food:
--> chocoloates
--> candies
--> pasta
--> ice cream

4 PLACES I’D RATHER BE AT RIGHT NOW:
--> new jersey ~~,)
--> france
--> japan
--> hongkong

4 PEOPLE WHO WILL (hopefully) RESPOND TO THIS GAME:
--> nix
--> aki
--> charms
--> glenna

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abercrombie boys

teehee. abercrombie boys! gay guys xD! wahahaha! i <3 the snapshots.
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too much caffeine is bad. very bad.

i'm guilty of overdoing caffeine again. it's officially caffeinism (it's what you call caffeine-dependence or caffeine OD). for today i have taken 1L of coke and how much mg of caffeine does it have? i don't even wanna know.

Some of the most common short-term effects of drinking caffeine are:

• increased alertness (caffeine is a mild stimulant)
  
• makes your heart beat faster
  
• raises your body temperature

Long term effects:

• Excess caffeine can increase the risk of osteoporosis and fractures.
• Two cans of cola drinks can cause anxiety and reduces the ability to sleep.

That would explain my regular insomnia days, muscular pains & too much anxiety. But that doesn't explain my drowsiness then i'll go all hyperactive. I really should stop drinking drink less caffeinated drinks. it's hard to stop. i tried to do it several times and it only lasted for a week 'coz i just can't resist cola and coffee T___T i feel awfully sad for myself. God help me.
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My Webshrine!

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Blogthings for the midnight.

Your Pimp Name Is...

Silky Love

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Dance Floor Anthem

Everybody
Put up your hands Say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feel the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feeling good now
Don’t be afraid to get down say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”

This is my current lovelife song, Dance floor anthem by Good Charlotte.
Why? simple. "...I don't wanna be in love."

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fanfictions

i decided i'll post some of my fanfictions here. just because.

i recently found one of my early works. it was actually good so i decided to edit it and continue the story. maybe i'll post it here too. ^___^ above all, i'm just pretty keen about writing fanfics again. only now i have matured more (after stumbling on some pornfics, which wasn't really bad.)

and am i still cheesy in writing my fanfictions? the answer is YES. i can't lose that hopeless romantic character i portrait in my stories. and heck, i made my first secks-related chapter. it kept me all night just to figure out what are the right words to write. i guess i pulled it up good. teehee. Ray Toro was hawt in it. xD.

Labels: fanfictions

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it will rain.

Labels: icons, mcr

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One shot: LOVE LETTERS

“I told you we should have taken that other room!!” she screamed at him.

“How am I suppose to know if this room had a single bed or not?!” Gerard answered back.

“I don’t care!! I’m sleeping on the bed!!” Abby said and pushed him out of the way.

“Not fair! You asked me a favor to drive you to your sister’s house far away from ours, then you talked a lot that’s why we have to drive back home late and we ended up sleeping in a hotel! This is actually all your fault, so you shouldn’t complain.” He said jokingly and hit her with a pillow.

There was a moment of silence. Abby left for the bathroom immediately and locked the door. He didn’t worry. Gerard & Abby are best friends yet they fight a lot. He wins, she cries. But despite all these, they really do care for each other. And they were always a lot like this, Abby and He.

He was on changing to his pj’s when he heard the door open. She was a bit surprised when she saw Gerard standing there, without his top and only in his pajamas. It’s a worthy sight, she thought.

“Pervert!” she blurted out.

“Yeah, I saw the way you stared at me & you’ve almost consumed all of me.” he gave away a sly look.

“Yeah, you wish.” She said and went to the bed.

Gerard didn’t further argue. He had to admit that he’s secretly in love with her, he teases but he still gives away.

“Hey, are you still awake?” he asked. No one answered.

Gerard went close to the bed and saw her sleeping. Seeing her like this makes his heart melt. He came closer to her face, close to kissing her when she suddenly shifted, making her lips softly touched against his. They stayed that way for a few seconds that felt like forever to him.

“Abs?” he asked slightly waking her up.

"Yeah?"

"Can I borrow a pillow?"

“Ok…” she said and went back to sleep.

He slept sitting on the floor beside the bed. He didn’t bother. Being beside her makes him all happy inside.

He woke up early and went out to get some breakfast.

“Wake up sleepyhead!!” he said to her while pulling her foot.

“Get lost Arthur! I still wanna sleep!!”

“What if I read this letter I saw outside the door this morning? It’s addressed to you.”
She hurriedly stood up and grabbed the letter from him. She opened it and something written in it made her smile.

“A love letter again?” Gerard said.

“Yeah. So? Are you jealous? You really should be. You don’t know how to write such things that’s why you don’t have a girlfriend.” She said. She says this kind of things to him but if it hurts him, it hurts her more.

They’ve been friends since college and they’ve been through anything they could think of except falling in love into each other. She thought it was the worst thing to happen so she just keeps it to herself.

“Correction, I had a girlfriend. I just broke up with her. She drinks like a madman.” She burst in laughter and he joined her. He smiled at her, seeing her laughing her heart out, he made her day once again. Gerard, the master love letter writer, you’ve done it again. He said to himself.

“I really think we’d better be going. Mom called and she said we can have dinner at home.”

“Great! Can I sleep over?” he asked. “No way.” she answered.

Gerard had that disappointed look on his face.

“You don’t understand. You can’t sleep anymore in the house. We’re having problems around.” she explains.

“What problem?”

“Not much. Just rat problems. We’re fixing it soon.”

“What?!? You have rats in your house? Maybe all of them came from your room, because you just leave your clothes around so the rats feast on them.” He said teasing.

“Yeah sure…” she said quietly, faking a smile.

He felt that something was wrong with her, but he was too afraid to ask. He heard she had a sickness, a sickness so bad that it could take over her anytime. Gerard was scared. Scared of loosing her.

The dinner was cancelled. She fainted at the moment they reached her place. He wasn’t able to go home, he was told by her parents to go home and rest but he was more than restless. Now he was worrying like hell. He started to write his letters in agony, he wrote and wrote until the papers piled around him. He wrote everything, anything he could think of. He was running out of words and fighting with his urge to cry. Until he finally broke down into tears…

No matter how long, I will always be here, loving you… I promise.
I love you.
~ Gerard

He finally decided to sign his letter with his name. He crept outside towards her mailbox and slipped all the letters inside.

It was already morning when he woke up. He dashed to her house and into her room. Abby’s parents were crying. He found himself again staring at her in her sleep, only that she won’t wake up anymore. Gerard struggled with the pain in his heart, he was all crushed inside. He didn’t have the chance to tell her everything he wants to tell.

“…she had leukemia Gerard.” Abby’s mom spoke.

“Why didn’t she tell me?” Gerard asked holding back his tears.

“She didn’t want to let you know, she doesn’t want you to be sad for her. The doctor gave her a week. She went to her sister to say goodbye. We wanted to bring her there but she asked us if we could let her be with you for the last time...”

His mouth was too dry to say anything. He leaned over her and kissed her as the tears rolled down his cheeks. Gerard got up and saw an envelope on her bedside table, it was addressed to him. He opened it and read the mail...

I guess I made you worried when I fainted, I’m sorry. Mom said you’ve waited outside since. I tried my best to stay awake to watch over you. You were always the one watching over me. Gee, thanks for all the letters. I saw you putting a lot of them a while ago. I just didn’t have the courage to confront you, but I will, somehow. You’ve filled my heart with the most wonderful words and thoughts and I’m guilty for not giving them back. I love you Gerard. It was just too hard for words to come out coz’ we’re best friends and not lovers. But wherever am I by this time you’ve read this, your love letters are kept in my heart. I will read them all again and again until we meet. Farewell. I love you Gerard. Forever, I promise.
~ Abby
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random-niscity

squeeeee!!~ it's NCIS on C/S channel. *gets hyper & runs around*
Tony, McGee, Ducky and Gibbs are my boys. mine! teehee! :))
but then i don't like this episode that much because gibbs flirted with a redhead. nuh-uh. not nice, gibbs.
And Abby sciuto will always be my own 'powergoth girl'. i probably would die just to be like her. a smart, happy, gothic forensic scientist.

i tried convincing my aunt again to let me have my ear pierced. BUT NO, she didn't give in.
she said i would still have to wait until graduation to have a piercing. gah. nonsense. i hate this kind of craptalk. "why on earth can't i have a piercing?!?! sheesh... it's not like i'm going to get a tat."
Speaking of tattoos, i'd love to have one but i'm scared of large needles. *shrugs* maybe a henna tat would do, a spider web one or a pentacle. that would be wicked awesome.

Tony: Boss, what is a 6-letter word for reason to commit a crime?
Gibbs: Dinozzo.

A Baby walrus is worth a million coo. i WOULD LOVE TO HUG A MASSIVE BABY WALRUS.
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New Layout

LOL. i changed my layout again. i don't know why though. maybe i was not just completely satisfied with the previous one. (i just had it for 3 days && it was image heavy)

but i should say that i am pretty impressed with my new layout. i slaved over it last night and early this morning. but i ♥ it! except for the fact that it's pink all over... err... but nonetheless, i find it nice and adorable but twisted at the same time.

and yes... I MADE A FAVICON.
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Standing on the wrong floor.

I’m stupor and a nonsense.

Aki, I’m sorry I wasn't able to save your number because I wasn't thinking again. Now all I have to do is wait for your text so I can text you back. And no, our chat transcript was not on my ym’s archive.

I should say I was happy very happy indeed to chat with you -- a fellow depressed human being that is fully capable of understanding me. Yes, I get very random a lot of times. But above all, I am just a sad piece of rubbish.

God, I missed writing. I’ve been writing since I was 12, I was not close to good or mediocre but I write to my heart's content or until my hands give up. I could write good things, even exceptional things that climbed its way to make me an editor-in-chief of our school’s paper. It made me a one happy soul that hoped it could write until the heart completely spoke itself.
The months, weeks, days, minutes and seconds -- moved so fast that I was utterly left behind and it made me robot, a stupid metal junk. I was, in the past, cheerful I should say but I was less friendly. Or I wasn't really friendly at all.

College didn’t do anything good either. I honestly don’t like the course I’m taking. It was all for the sake of my parents. It hurts me so much how it slaps me in the face – the fact that ever since, all the things I do was for the sake of some people. I couldn’t think of a sole thing I made for the intention of satisfying my heart’s call. Then I am furthered rejected by the people around me for who I really am.

ME – Twisted. Apathetic. Depressed. Introverted. Freak. Psychopath. Alien. Madman. A Killer.

And now, I lack myself a heart. It got fed-up from too much hurting it chose not to hurt nor feel anymore. God knows why am I like this or how did I end up despising myself. I am not even an excuse for an unrhymed twisted lullaby.

Only me knows what I truly want right now – a friend.
A friend that’ll let me be myself and not be some clique’s dress-up Barbie doll that does this-and-that because her adorned friends told her so. I wish I could die right now, get poisoned or get drunk. But the thing is I don’t even drink alcohol. Maybe I could just kiss some cyanide lips and send myself to sleep.

Tear me up and Break me down children of my disheartened sort. Take your black markers and cross me out 'coz you can't turn back swings that i've made and my permanent markers can't be erased. That's why I call it permanent.

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Graphic / Banner

I made some banners a while ago which i think went out well. : ]


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Peter Parker gone -- what?!?

lol. i was just amazed how tobey maguire/ peter parker turned emo-looking in spiderman 3.
*he looks good on it btw. except his dancing moments. and ooooh... i ♥ his stare.*

other than that, OMGWTF!!! everyone could just die just because of James Franco's smile. Gawd.
i wuv him! lmao.
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The Umbrella Academy

Today:

• i have to wake up early to get copies of TUA.
• haha. sa totoo lang naligaw kami papuntang druid's keep. di namin nakita yung place kaya robinson nalang kami pumunta.
• kaka-open pa lang ng mall nandun na kami.
• isa kami sa mga nagbukas ng comic odyssey. YAY! free comics nga!!
• TUA = sweet love.
  
• lol sa characters && descriptions. "...special love dating."
• Goodness. Am i not so terribly happy.
  

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so sick

patrick stump singing 'so sick'. *fangirl mode*


i am mischievous today.
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o____O

gah. i need to get a job.
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